Ever since we learned we were expecting your biggest brother Connor and we knew it was a viable pregnancy we called him OB1. It was kinda for our last name O'Brien and him being the first born but it was also for Obi-Wan kanobi. After Connor was born and we learned we were pregnant with your big brother Liam, we called him OB2. Made sense to then call you OB3 when I was pregnant with you. Finally your baby sister was called OB4.
Well, the last few weeks I have felt you and OB4/Reilly close to each other. I have made multiple trips to the yardley post office and it is there that I see the first memorial brick for you. Every time I go to he post office I stop by your brick and cry.
I feel guilt seeing your brick when I have Reilly with me. Please know she's not a replacement. I would give my life to have you here with us. I have no doubt that you and Reilly have met. She looks so much like you, especially when she's in the bath and her crazy hair is matted down. She loves the bath just like you.
We also recently spent an afternoon at your grave planting fall flowers. As soon as we got to your grave it started to thunder. I knew it was you saying hi. We were there with your newborn cousin who is three weeks younger than reilly. Reilly was so calm the whole time we were there. I felt like she was at peace having her three brothers near.
Owen I miss you more than I could ever express. Now that Reilly is smiling and laughing I'm reminded of you and your sweet spirit. I love her so much but every day is still filled with sadness because you, her partner in crime, is not her physically. I know you were part of blessing us with our rainbow child and I thank you for that.
I love you to heaven and back. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight.
Love,
Your one and only mom
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