Tonight your dad took your brothers to best buy to do guy things while I put your sister to bed. They played video games, bought a printer etc. all the things that bore me!
So they got home late and as they were going to bed in a camp out in the guest room, they started talking about space. So many questions, such a cute conversation to listen in on. Unfortunately I couldn't help but think you should be there in the mix. 2.5 years old, listening in, doing boy things with the boys.
I am so grateful to God for blessing our family with your sister. She literally saved me. But I can't help but think back to the 5 months or so I had with you in my belly, knowing you were a boy and the 5 months we had with you as our third son, and remember how excited I was to have a family of three boys. Polar opposite of the family of three girls I grew up in.
God has blessed our family so much but I still can't wait till I meet him in heaven to ask why. Why God did you take my third son for your own and leave me broken hearted?
Miss you more than ever.
You were missed tonight in the little playground in town. Here's your brothers trying to throw each other off. I didn't grab a picture when your sister was on it too but when she was, the fourth seat sat empty. Oh how we missed you.
Love,
Your one and only Mom
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