Did you ever know let it be was written by Paul McCartney about his mom who died when he was 14? Well when Paul was struggling in life he had a dream that his mom visited him and told him to let it be. Life would be ok. Well it turned out to be after. He met Linda, settled down etc. Let it be. Can I do that?
I sure don't feel like life will be ok right now. Every day and every moment has been a struggle lately. As much as reilly and your older brothers are a joy, my heart aches all the time. All the time. I have to tell myself to let it be. I know you are with me and I have to trust in god.
Your photo was just featured in Parent magazines November 2013 edition about SIDS. I'm extrmely angry at the article but I loved seeing your smiling face. We did everything to prevent Sids and you still died. I wish the article focused on how we don't know why SIDS happens and those sleep ways help reduce the risk but some babies like you die even if you do everything right. We need fundraising to figure out why perfectly healthy babies just stop breathing.
Let it be. I just have to do that now. Let it be.
Parents magazine spread